I am truly sorry if I came across as "perfect"---there is none---no not one----perfect---except for Jesus. I don't really understand what buttons I am pushing to draw this fire---but if you knew me---you would know I never intended to push those buttons.
I am FAR from perfect-----so far that I can't even see the "P"---BUT because of God's grace and forgiveness---I am white as driven snow---I am blessed! I have a LONG life full of mistakes--I am thankful that God knows my every fault---and after confession---forgives my sin. Without His forgiveness--I would be doomed.
ALL I was trying to say---is that---I truly believe I did everything I could think of---including praying unceasingly to save my marriage. I TRULY believe God intended "ME" to stay in my marriage and I tried to do just that. I can ONLY speak for me----I wanted it to work---I worked at making it work---it just didn't work.
SO before you jump down my throat after mis-reading my post---and not knowing the voice I am using---please know---I am not embarrassed ---because I am positive I did all within my power---including pleading with God---it has NOTHING to do with "my perfection". For without Jesus----there is NO perfection in any of us. ONLY the Lamb is Worthy and Perfect----I AM "Fallen Man".