I have a sweet young friend that has commented several times about the embarrassment I must be feeling during the past year. I was taken back at first when he said that---but decided I would think about it and not respond impulsively. Here is what I have decided-
Embarrassment comes from shame. I have no shame and I am not embarrassed. I am hurt----my heart was broken---but I have never been embarrassed. I came up with a life lesson while nursing Momma through her final illness. When I put my head on the pillow every night, I need to know that I have done ALL I needed to do that day. I needed to put my head down---and even though I might sometimes have a tough time sleeping---I would KNOW I did ALL I could do that day.
For 3 years---I did ALL---and I do mean ALL I could to redeem and save my marriage. It did not work---BUT I can put my head on the pillow EVERY night KNOWING I did everything I could possibly do.
SO---I am not embarrassed---never have been---and after more than a year---it is getting easier.
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do you think you are the only one that is hurt in life, and do you think yours is the only situation that required mercy, grace, and forgiveness, and did you think you are the only one that gave and prayed and thought and tried and felt everything from embarrassment and shame and that "I have done everything" I know to do and that " I am not embarrassed"... I am sorry your young friend does "not have a clue".....
BTW have you and did you do "everything" you knew to do?
glad it is getting easier. You need a repreive from life.... May God bless you bountifully....just had to chime in....sorry....
Glad to see your post you have nothing and I repeat "nothing" to be embarrassed over. You are good and pure and solid and true. Nothing to be embarrassed over.. Just know you are perfect....take comfort in that fact....what embarrassment? over what? You got lots of readers and lots of fans....hang tight...
I am sick of sanctimonous personallities that see no fault in anything they have every done... I pity you in that we have all done things we are sorry for and wish we had not done. You, on the other hand, see to have done everything perfectly... Congratulations..... One of the very few...
It seems that many of your readers leaving comments have never heard the Southern saying, "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all." I am amazed at the venom and bitterness that is directed at you, probably from people who have never met you . . .
You can only speak of YOUR journey, and your readers can only speak of THEIR journey. I would hope that instead of railing on you, they might share some of their own experience.
A friend . . .
You have ABSOLUTELY nothing to be embarrassed about!
You tried and hung in there longer than most and truly mourned the loss of your marriage. I am so proud of you and glad you are improving and moving forward.
Anonymous is a cowardly way of expressing an opinion. Do you not think we see through your venomous words? We are able to see that you are drowning in self loathing and want someone to sink with you. How dare you throw stones at a person who is admittedly trying to sort through her life right now. She has never expressed that she is perfect, nor a victim, nor faultless in her life. You apparently are so lost in your anger that you cannot even read about someone who is clinging to God, her children, and her friends and actually getting better. All that read your comments can see that you are projecting your insecurities onto someone else. Do you want someone to yell at? to be mad at? to ridicule and curse? I suggest you call up whoever made you so bitter and leave this person alone!! I pity you. I pity your anger. I pity your sarcastic ways. Why are you unable to witness a Christian woman resolve her problems? Fight her demons? Win her battles? She does have a GOOD, PURE, SOLID and TRUE Christian spirit. She also has a WICKED, TARNISHED, WEAK, and LYING Heart... SHE ADMITS THAT!! AGAIN, SHE IS BRAVE ENOUGH TO SHOW IT TO THE PUBLIC. To show all sides of herself to whoever reads this blog. Your jealousy of her truth is blindingly obvious. If you are unable to handle her thoughts, writtings, and truth-telling, READ SOMETHING ELSE. Sorry for the rant, Lulu... just couldn't stomach the venom anymore.
Brooke LANGFORD
First, Brooke thanks for taking up for my friend, so I don't need to (told her I'd try and not cause any more trouble). You would think after 63 yrs I wouldn't be amazed so by peoples actions, but I am. The moon is not even full but the haters are raving. Lora Lu blessings and peace to you. Prayers & Prayers,
Mike
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