I have a sweet young friend that has commented several times about the embarrassment I must be feeling during the past year. I was taken back at first when he said that---but decided I would think about it and not respond impulsively. Here is what I have decided-
Embarrassment comes from shame. I have no shame and I am not embarrassed. I am hurt----my heart was broken---but I have never been embarrassed. I came up with a life lesson while nursing Momma through her final illness. When I put my head on the pillow every night, I need to know that I have done ALL I needed to do that day. I needed to put my head down---and even though I might sometimes have a tough time sleeping---I would KNOW I did ALL I could do that day.
For 3 years---I did ALL---and I do mean ALL I could to redeem and save my marriage. It did not work---BUT I can put my head on the pillow EVERY night KNOWING I did everything I could possibly do.
SO---I am not embarrassed---never have been---and after more than a year---it is getting easier.