Comment Posted Last Night---
"After reading you heart felt thoughts for what seems like weeks now, I have come to the opinion that you need to move on. I remind you it is just an opinion. However after you have grieved, vented, cried and vented more and shook your fist in God's face, it does seem that you would move on. All who read you have sympathy and many of us have empathy but for yourself, your friends and your family, drop this line of blogging and move to the things you once blogged about. Even in your pain, surely there are still some good and precious things in your life.. Quick sand: the more you fight it the more it sucks you down.... relax,
have faith, we all love you."
Someone is not happy with the tone of my blogs--I am sorry and I am thankful for your reading-and good wishes. Here is the bottom line---no one pays me to post my blog---it is merely what is going on in my life. I am venting---I am trying to journal my way through this path- it is what I am thinking about and what is going on in my life. I am sorry you are tired of reading about it---but please just don't read it if you are tired of it.
After 38 years of marriage--it is NOT that easy to be happy go lucky--all is fun--this life is great at the moment. As the one counselor told me the one time I went to see her, after addressing why am I not over this yet???---Why did you expect to get over this in a few short months when it is most of your life that you are leaving behind? I've told my daughter--"I am sick of thinking about it and sick of talking about it, but it never leaves my mind if I am not busy at work."
There will come a time---for sure--that the old Lora will start showing up again--in fact I believe she showed up this week as I laughed about all the suggestions I have had. For now--the old Lora is still here--lurking under the surface--but you have to be with me 24/7 to catch those glimpses and she does not come out in my writing very often. SO it's your decision--you are in control of your computer---read or not--have patience with me-or turn away--YOU are in control of what you read--just as you told me I was in control of my life and just move on.