I am in a wrestling match with an opponent I can't possibly defeat---God...but like Jacob---I am NOT currently happy with The Most High---in fact I think you can say I am DOWN RIGHT ANGRY! I will not go into why I am wrestling--suffice it to say---I am questioning His being just----
The part of the prayer that Jesus taught us---the perfect prayer--The Lord's Prayer--the part about "Thy Will"---that's a bitter pill to swallow at times---What about what I want?
I will say God has faithfully provided work--another new job starts Monday--BUT what about the ministry time that I loved---there is almost no time for that anymore.
My life is a shipwreck---I dragged myself onto the shore & I have cried out to God & we are wrestling---wrestling--hopefully I will not limp away from the match-- My friend Barbara told me He had a big chest to pummel away---that's exactly what I am doing--not sleeping much---working & wrestling--that's about it.