Today has been a hard day--as weekends are often difficult. I have tried to stay busy---projects-visiting---but there are still empty moments to think
When I get to heaven I would like for God to explain to me why he created us (women-anyway) with the need for a man in our lives. I actually like myself and don't mind my own company--but there are times---that I am very lonesome---incomplete---alone. When I see a couple my age shopping together, driving down the road together, entering the room together, having a meal together--sitting in church together--I always think---I should be there.
Why would God create us like that knowing that most of us women will eventually be alone? Why would he let those that He loves so dearly--suffer this emptiness? I KNOW---I have been told--I believe----HE should be enough----but to date--I have not felt him warm my feet at night.
Am I EVER going to adjust to being alone? I've been alone for almost 10 months---but unless I am working and busy--I have this feeling of something is really missing in my life.
On my list to ask God why---when we meet face to face.