If you remember the story of David from the scriptures, you know that he hid in a cave for a while. I have found myself totally and completely exhausted--from the top of my head to the end of my toes---physically-mentally-emotionally. I am talked out---have nothing left to give and in serious need of a word from God. Our small group is studying a book on "Hearing God" and while reading over part of it yesterday I decided it is time to retreat from the world-as much as possible--be still-be alone-and listen.
I am in a not good place emotionally--even with the happy pills--so it is time to deal with the grief-quite running in circles--and face this time. The cave is dark and cold and you are isolated from the world if you go deep enough into it-but there is an opening and the light is waiting for you to re-emerge and I will see the light again.
For now---I need this time in the cave.
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Praying for you!
You don't know me. I found your blog through your daughter's when I first read about her blog in the Erie paper. Please know that I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult season of your life.
It's a strange but glorious world isn't it?
I am also from Erie and I comment from time to time. I hope you find your way through this difficult time quickly and back to a new normal. I usually have myself together nicely but find famiily issues to be getting a bit out of hand around here as well, causing me great stress and grief lately. Difficult times all around! I am Catholic so I am Praying to our Blessed Virgin Mary to extend her Grace on all of us.
What sweet posts from people you do not even know....sometimes God just puts folks in our lives, perhaps for no other reason than to pray for us. My heart hurts so badly when I know your heart is hurting. I can hear and almost feel the pain...I know from this blog that you realize you must-- "Be Still and Know that I am God". God will give you a word...I am certain of that. You are allowed to enter that cave---do not feel guilty about doing that....your body, your heart, and your spirit need that....I pray pray pray for spritual healing for you...and rest for your body.... Luh ya! When I see you tomorrow, you will get a chuckle for sure about my fall at Cypress Springs...scraped up some...but mainly my pride.....that is, had anyone seen me..which I pray they did not! PRAYING CONSTANTLY MY BUDDY!
GOOSIE GIRL
please know you are not alone in that cave...we are there with you, praying, and our spirits are wrapping around you, holding you while you grieve...
ann
Greg and I are thinking of and praying for you sweet lady! We love you!
It hurts me to see you hurt. You are very much loved, Loralu, and we will all be here when you are ready. Praying for you. Love you, my dear friend.
Rest! Praying for a refreshing time and new life and intimacy with Jesus. Love you!
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