I am currently involved in a LARGE project for CCC that involves two service projects for the school where I volunteer. I have been in MAJOR over-drive trying to get all the details ironed out before I leave for Baby Dos ONE WEEK FROM TODAY! I wanted to leave knowing I would come home with only last minute details and a clear picture of "What would happen" the day of the project.
God seems to have a different idea. He is teaching me to let go of the control and trust He will work out even the details. IT IS NOT EASY!!! I have skirted around the "letting go" unsuccessfully---but have still tried to let go of only parts, have my plans ultimately come to fruition, even totally balking at the idea. He will not let me go there though.
I will leave with the "Project" in someone else's lap. Will it all get done without me? We will see. I must say that my mind is saying---"When I get back, I will go into overdrive if it doesn't get done by others who are now sitting in the driver's seat" Still doubting Still having a hard time letting go Still hesitant.
HE IS TEACHING ME AND NOT LETTING UP--NOT GIVING IN TO MY NEED FOR CONTROL---MAKING ME TRUST HIM. IT'S NOT EASY--I must confess. My need for control and lack of trust are over-whelming. BUT I am back in the corner and at a stand still---so I have no choice.